Tomorrow...
And now I have.
- posted by Altered @ 10:16 PM

 
But what do I hope to win?
I'm afraid it may boil down to pride at which point I'd have to back down--what of my character?

'How does one defend oneself?'

Or 'Do I even bother?'

Supposing I HAVE 'bothered.' Am I a man of character? Why have I chosen THIS battle? What makes me think my character is at stake?

I overheard the Mgr talking about me, she confirmed. What I had overheard was in reference to my letter. The district Mgr had not mentioned anything to me regarding my letter. Anything. She was in the store that day. It wasn't the district manager with whom she was speaking. She made reference that what had happened was because I didn't understand procedure. That I should have come to her, the store Mgr.

This is the point where I thought. And I thought. I thought I could go far in this company. I really did. I actually have the passion. I appreciate the history, the world history, involved in the meager job I DO. But here I feel a little foolish. As if I simply jumped the gun, 'Oops! Huh, there goes Matt!' That's not me. I take my blows when they come to me. I was subjected to 'punishment' when I moved. I can't blame them. They can't hold it against me, I was honest. I am honest and want to remain so. Though, lying, it seems, could get me what I want, I don't think it's worth lying--it's my integrity.

To hear what I said being passed--period--this is where my problem is forced to stop. I cannot take this up with Mgr, this must come up with district Mgr. I don't know what came of my letter, other than I feel I was disciplined by Mgr for having written it (That I should have gone to Mgr) and that now Mgr tells someone I jumped the gun.

It is worth me standing up for. I am intent on this.

I have chosen this battle.

Those, then, are three questions I need answer for myself.
- posted by Altered @ 12:31 AM